Nene
a full 24 hours, that s how i can call it. and it s still going on.it s slowing down though, about to stop. one last heart kick at last second:seeing VA in front of the building. with another guy whom she introduced "a (my) friend". probably he is. i do not know. i ve watched them from my window,on their way to downtown. she didnt get close to him, but she s taken a picture of him. i remembered her doing the same to me. (a bit annoying) a heartkick..
last nite, i ended up alone sitting on a bar chair, some "companies" were supposed to come till the last hour. on the way, at the bus, an old man annoyed a young tall bro. they argued for a while -by words. the old man suddenly stood up, in a second there was a knife in his hand. i didnt know that you dont usually get excited at that moment, unless you know you are the one threat comes towards. he yelled "common and now! slap me", the young guy,stood up so quickly - slapped him down to the seat. the old man stared for a moment at a point out of time , out of frame. he hold the knife tight. he could have stabbed the young guy, just at that moment but he didnt, he didnt have the courage in himself wisely, and luckily. the back door opened and i got down. trembled a little then.
at the club, all gone out of my mind.. i ve felt uneasy, sitting there alone,enjoyed the reaggae band a little. watched around a little. i hardly feel good at those places, i hardly get rid of the effects of the atmosphere..its own rules' tie my thoughts up, interrupting on their way back to caves of self sufficiency. i ve left the bar around 11pm, heading for the movie marathon they held at a near university. i was 2$s short of the money i needed to pay for the ticket. no atms around. the chinese girl at the box office seemed easy but didnt be easy, i was ready to say today was my birthday. a guy hearing the dialogue "donated" 2$s for me. i was embrassed a little. he didnt look at my face when i said thanks, just given the money to the girl.
inside, there was the stage between the screen and the seats, on the stage,i noticed beds and people lying on them.. under the dim light of the movie Alien. i ve slept for two movies, too, at my seat. i wished i could be lying on a bed there.. thought i t d be nice doing that with someone... i ve felt so good sleeping in the middle of a crowd, in Cleveland, at the middle of the nite.. doing that and feeling secure, must have seemed to me impossible. i ve enjoyed that part of it most maybe, more than the movies.. how dreamlikely it would be if those two wishes were fullfilled also.
(ukiyo-e : nene)
last nite, i ended up alone sitting on a bar chair, some "companies" were supposed to come till the last hour. on the way, at the bus, an old man annoyed a young tall bro. they argued for a while -by words. the old man suddenly stood up, in a second there was a knife in his hand. i didnt know that you dont usually get excited at that moment, unless you know you are the one threat comes towards. he yelled "common and now! slap me", the young guy,stood up so quickly - slapped him down to the seat. the old man stared for a moment at a point out of time , out of frame. he hold the knife tight. he could have stabbed the young guy, just at that moment but he didnt, he didnt have the courage in himself wisely, and luckily. the back door opened and i got down. trembled a little then.
at the club, all gone out of my mind.. i ve felt uneasy, sitting there alone,enjoyed the reaggae band a little. watched around a little. i hardly feel good at those places, i hardly get rid of the effects of the atmosphere..its own rules' tie my thoughts up, interrupting on their way back to caves of self sufficiency. i ve left the bar around 11pm, heading for the movie marathon they held at a near university. i was 2$s short of the money i needed to pay for the ticket. no atms around. the chinese girl at the box office seemed easy but didnt be easy, i was ready to say today was my birthday. a guy hearing the dialogue "donated" 2$s for me. i was embrassed a little. he didnt look at my face when i said thanks, just given the money to the girl.
inside, there was the stage between the screen and the seats, on the stage,i noticed beds and people lying on them.. under the dim light of the movie Alien. i ve slept for two movies, too, at my seat. i wished i could be lying on a bed there.. thought i t d be nice doing that with someone... i ve felt so good sleeping in the middle of a crowd, in Cleveland, at the middle of the nite.. doing that and feeling secure, must have seemed to me impossible. i ve enjoyed that part of it most maybe, more than the movies.. how dreamlikely it would be if those two wishes were fullfilled also.
(ukiyo-e : nene)
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